Gambling....it does a wallet good.

Well, my plan of winning a bunch of money at the casino so I could avoid working at the restaurant didn't work out. This week at least. Now I have to work there so I can make money to take to the casino and win enough money to not work there. That's not dreamy talk either, it's hard logic. Sure it never worked out in the past but that's the past and this is now and my game theory abilities have been finely honed and crafted so that now I can lose my money much more scientifically.

Flashback

As I procrastinate working on my book, I might as well write something and try to get the proverbial juices flowing. So last night I went back to my old work and asked to come back there. This is hopefully a temporary situation but a necessary one unfortunately as I am out of money and my parents are soon to follow. So the need to support myself is pretty imperative. I was hoping to catch on to a much better restaurant but at least I know the place, it's convenient to where I live, and I should be able to make a decent living at it. Oddly enough, here I am in my parents house, single, and working at the Beach Cafe again. Almost exactly my situation when I moved to Seattle from LA in 2003. Circle of life, I guess.

Giving the rest of you ladies a bad name

So I met a girl on match a couple of weeks ago and we emailed back and forth. Shared a similar sense of humor, which is a tough thing to find in my case so I was very interested in going out with her. Didn't hurt that she was easy on the eyes. So we move on to the texting and it's going fine. Earlier this week we agreed to go out tonight, but not with particularly solid planning beyond the night. No time or place chosen, that was something I left up to her. Last night I texted her to see if we were still on for tonight. No response. This morning I text a little good morning message just to make contact. No response. This afternoon I text a joking without a time and place how are we supposed to meet up message. No response. Should I have been calling at this point? Am I in trouble because I didn't text her the last couple of days? Or could something have happened to her? Or is she just crazy? I realize I'll probably never know what happened or didn't happen. Luckily there's many more women online. Still, I was pretty disappointed overall. Thought I might have had something with her. Oh well.

Reality check, please.

Like many people right now, I'm not working. This has mostly been by choice, which is much different than the average out of work American and I am quite grateful that this is the case. Of course, the reason this is possible is that I live in my parents house and pretty much have exhausted my credit cards for the modicum of enjoyable socializing that I get to do. That being the case, I figure I just might have to bite the proverbial bullet and return to the wonderful world of waiting tables. I had already thrown my hat back into that ring in January to deafening silence as most places were not hiring. This time of year that would be common even in the most positive of economic times, but right now it's obviously much worse. So even though I have fifteen years of server experience, have actually managed even, there have been no bites so far. I did have two interviews at one place but they informed me after the second one that they weren't actually looking to hire. Well, what an enjoyable time to have those interviews, thanks! So now I've been scouring the craigslist for possible future work and applying to the jobs that I have no chance of getting just to make my mother happy. She of course thinks I could do anything if a place would give me a chance, but she seems to not realize that there's probably a thousand applicants ahead of me who just may have those pesky little advantages like meeting the actual requirements of the job itself. Can't say I don't try though.
So in the meantime, I continue to pen my non-fiction tome about horrible dating choices, all the while pursuing future book fodder by belonging to both eHarmony and match.com. Admittedly they have yielded a few doozies. Guess that means the sequel is already writing itself. And all I need is a few hours a week to make a few bucks. The no rent issue at least allows for some flexibility. Of course, I hope to not be living with my parents through the rest of my 30s. We shall see.

Blah again

As another week starts so deepens the worry of when I'll get some work. Could the talent agency really prove to be fruitful almost immediately (hopefully)? At least I've finally beaten the writer's block, sort of, and gotten a few more stories written. But the doubts are still there and the focus is lacking when everything in life is so unsettled. But I'm hardly the first person who's had to create while facing uncertainty in life. And I'm sure I won't be the last, so I guess I'll get back to it. And will try to use the blog less for bitching and more for, uh, whatever it is that I'm supposed to use it for.

Saturday outing

Today I went to an art gallery that had paintings that were done by animals from the zoo. The elephants showed a great sense of stroke while the orangutan was quite proficient with the paint pens. It was really pretty neat and the proceeds that came from the sales were put towards a zookeepers' conference that is happening later this year. I was told about it by a woman I am seeing and we had a good time. By good fortune, one of the zookeepers from Woodland Park Zoo happened to come in while we were there and he gave us a very detailed explanation for how the exhibit came to be. Very informative. And not a bad way to spend a Saturday. I did wonder what the gallery thought about being located right next to a gentleman's club. Two completely different clienteles I suppose.

TGIF?

Another day, another afternoon of procrastinating. Why do I do that? Why do I ask rhetorical questions on a blog? At least there was some good news today, a note from the talent agent I met with on Wednesday saying she would like me to join their agency. Now of course the money issue becomes more important as I'll need new pictures, probably some classes, etc. Still, it's another step in the right direction. Perhaps I can make a withdrawal from my bank (aka local casino). We shall see...